I am in an electron cloud, the Heisenberg uncertainty principle rules. All is in doubt. Nothing is decided.

All possibilities exist and none resolve. There are no definites. There is no collapse. The wave function waggles its hips and sashays across the floor unaware of the destruction and despair it wreaks.

My truck is not ready. It will never be ready to pass the test and the test is paramount. The mechanics ponder the codes.

The computer comes and goes to the depot and nothing is resolved.

A thin diaphanous hope lingers. Uncertainty and doubt is not the worst thing in the universe.

There are times though when one looks out upon the clarity of other lives, when routine existence bound by tradition and rote repetition seems appealing. Certainty leads to depth. Certainty allows for understanding of a moment, of a facet of life that if followed leads somewhere.

My truck is never ready to pass its tests. It won’t move on. It lingers.

Is it holding onto the past? Is it refusing to grow up to grow old to die gracefully? Is it afraid to talk to the other computers? Is it hiding from it’s one true purpose…to smuggle drunken clowns into Mexico?

What could be wrong with my little green truck?

Not ready…how will the truck know when it’s ready? The gatekeepers, the ferrymen of the automotive world, will tell it to pass on. Will it still be undecided after all that?